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well so long people I have to get going ttyl I'll be back tomarrow

okay I don't get it im ready to just give up and kill myself I wont go into details but my step dad is being a complete and total douchebag. I might have over-exaggerated with the killing myself part, but I am in a mental dilemma. I'm going through a lot of shit with my mother and step father I'm sick of hearing them fight everyday and night I think this is the one place were I can be myself as I always wanted to be but everyone has stopped me from doing it before " As we walk the road of sadness we find the things that make use whole we believe that trying is worth wild but beyond this road we decide its stupid and difficult as we think of the jealously of use as we rise to see the sharpness of owner outer edges we believe we found the answer until the answer is no longer see able we jump we dive we multiply or divide into ourselves as we walk this road of sadness we wish we didn't fight we wish the other was there then we decide that all we have to do is believe in ourselves as we find each other again we found out what sadness is like without another so we attach and never detach again as we decide to never walk this road of sadness again without one another." That is the road of sadness its a poem that I have written but I still feel that way I wroght it over a year ago and i still feel the same way.

How do you ever get threw life knowing u have done alot� of f****ing up!! i have sooo damn much ..like right now i amd trying really hard to stay sobor but i take it out on my man...he has� stuck by me when i was in jail he was all i had!! i didnt have anyone else i didnt feel like i needed anyone else either! but now its just i am not use to life this way its soo hard cause i amd use to drinking and being high and now its like how do you deal with life� when u have done the stuff so so long its like i am a different person its crazy but i am scared i am pushing him away� dont want that i really dont!! someone help me please!!

i know its been awhile� i am not with that guy i havent been i got back with an ex of mine and he is great and he is my world i love him with all my heart....my ex helped get me in trouble and i am now looking at time in prison i am triping out about it all!!!

It's been challenging for you to find your groove because you are so easily distracted now that the Full Moon is in your 3rd House of Immediate Environment. However, you might finally settle into a sustainable rhythm once you reach a point at which your frustration peaks. Don't waste energy thinking about what you could have done if you focused your energy sooner. Instead, just apply yourself as best you can, knowing that your concentration will improve over the days ahead.

Like that horoscope today!

First day back at the gym.....feels good!!

Like hot tea, my bed and steven colbert :)